Dear Abba,
Why have you given this to me? It’s what I’ve dreamed about, hoped for, and aspired to gain for the past six months. I daresay I probably even idolized it in my heart on a few occasions. So why have you still laid this before me? I’ve waited so long for this, and now it’s finally, officially within my grasp.
A few weeks ago, this would have been exactly what I wanted. But now suddenly, it just seems so petty, even selfish. You have reminded me of how these “important” matters that consume our present lives are just so trivial and small in the scope of Eternity. Thank you for making me more Heavenly-minded.
Is this from You or not, Lord? Is this the path You’ve set before me, or the temptation diverting me away? I can see potential for Your work to be done and Your glory to be gained. But what shall You have me do? Where shall You have me go, Father? I’m praying for direction and discernment.
<3,
Your child.